Tuesday, January 19, 2010
In the end, Im still so SU LA aka coward!
The only thing I dare to say was "I just don feel like working anymore for now"
When in actual Im just going to another outlet to work.
Why cant I be more daring and just say the true reason? "Im not happy here working with you guys backstabbing me and act like friendly, goody people"
Even my work fren who used to be my classmate cant take it also, encourage me to just say it and ALSO saw through my fake smiles during work...
I was quite stunned actually. Thought I hide it really well.... Bastard fella lol... Twice or maybe triple my size yet younger than me by 1.
The only guy that saw me break down and not once but twice already zzz and both becos of work lol...
If only I be daring enough to just say to someone who is walking in front of me and smoking away "HEY *** put that out or I put it out for you ***!" or is this too much le? Lolx (can input vualgar into *** up to how creative you can be)
When I say that I will do something, I usually never do it in the end. That is why you wont see me giving promises...
Like how much i wish i could go to a fren house and stay for a few days every now and then cos i don want to come back to this home. (although i didn say this yet...)
But I never will dare to... What exactly is stopping me?
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8:21 AM
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Sunday, January 17, 2010
Wad kind of person am I? IM A SU LA!
Yesterday I wanted to tell my manager that I wanted to quit cos am not working happily there anymore due to some reason but did not tell him that was the reason.
He ask me to sit down and have a talk. Say a whole lot junk of crap to convince me to continue working.
But I SU LA, did not stay firm enough like wad my fren say to me.
Want quit jiu quit why change my mind when some1 talk me out of it?
Then there was my father, making the day even better for me.
Everytime I have to give in to him and be a good son and don talk back.
When in my mind , I so wanted to give him a piece of my mind.
But I SU LA.
And so he think Im still under control by him and so continue to just step on me.
Lastly Im So SU LA, I do not have the courage to tell the girl I like, I like her
If today im still not able to stay firm and talk my manager out of me quitting the job, I might as well REALLY REALLY go and die.
Actually I have thoughts lots of time about ending my SU LA life and the consequences of it.
But whenever I think about some of my frens, I just cant do it.
Life has long been un-meaningful if not for my frens.
Yet how funny it is when i tired to call some1 in my contact list last night, there was none i could dare press.
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3:36 PM
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