My dad isn't a human at all. Or are all dads in this world like that? This male-being here will not care what happen to me. All he know is to drink the money he earn away every night and not wasted on me. And he only be satisfy if only I study non-stop 24/7 or working hard at work. Cos why? Because I know he is not happy even if i were to be just hanging out with frens. As long as he know I'm happy or enjoying myself somewhere, he'll get all pissed off. And when he just can't take it anymore, he unleashes his fury.(Like i care even if he tore the whole house down) If my job were to be too tough on me, I bet he be thinking 'wad a decent job, let him taste what its like to be working your lungs out.' That's I'll never show that to him. No matter how bruise or tired I get during work. I work during the weekends, study from morning to afternoon on weekdays. Now I've been given 3 weeks holiday and I can't get to enjoy A proper game with my job-mates 1-2nights every week? Is that asking for too much? One game? School re-open and i can't do that til the next holiday comes. Seriously sometimes when I crosses the road, I hope cars don't stop. When i sky-dive, chute won't open. I really wish to leave this home own by him or better, to be shut off from this world so that nobody know me nor i know anyone. I can't believe I'm so weak that i have to remind myself no matter what i must not forget all this but always ended forgetting about it. So I'm not going to wait for tomorrow to post this if not i will just forget about it again. I hope I can remember hatred. Why wasn't I born to remember hatred?
